I cannot begin to convey how many days I’m fearful to walk in my calling. Sometimes, it’s hard just to hit publish on a post I’ve written. When I stand behind a keyboard to lead worship or hold a microphone to speak at an event, I become riddled with doubt in who Christ has called me to be. Past sins come to mind, the quick and unkind response I may have made to my husband or children plagues me and gives me great reason to stop, but I can’t.
Yesterday, we talked about Jeremiah and how he, too, was tempted to quit. However, we quickly learned that it couldn’t be an option for him because the word of the Lord was shut up in his bones. He had no choice but to carry on.
And, once again, Peter comes to my mind…
Peter had been through a lot. He was a passionate individual who did the unthinkable when he denied Jesus not once or even twice, but THREE times. Can you imagine the guilt and condemnation swirling in his soul?
In John 21 Peter is restored by Jesus, and then we see that after the ascension Peter’s ministry really begins. In Acts 1:15 we find the disciples are at work to choose someone to replace Judas Iscariot.
And in those days Peter stood up in the midst of the disciples (altogether the number of names was about a hundred and twenty), and said…
I don’t want to discuss what Peter said, I want to focus on the fact that he stood up. It’s symbolic. Peter fought against guilt and condemnation from past mistakes to stand in his calling and do what Christ purposed him to do.
To truly live a still life, we often must face our negative feelings and stand up to be who we are called!
I recently heard the following quote from a seminary professor…
“What you desire in the future has to be stronger than the chains that hold you to the past.”
Don’t be afraid to stand, friend.
The act of standing, as a willing vessel, is often all it takes to understand true stillness of the soul.
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