Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. (N.K.J.V.)
Today, we did something that caused my eyes to fill with tears. I had a lump in my throat so thick that it stole my ability to speak. I realize most of you will probably think I’m just being over emotional and regard what we did as no big deal. But for me, the tears that came quickly were not solely based on the fact that time is fleeting. My tears came from the knowingness that I am truly feeding on the faithfulness of God, and there are no words to convey how grateful I am.
Today we disassembled the toddler beds and moved the twins into a big double bed. It’s super cute. We have half the room decorated with a boy theme and half with a girl theme. They are so attached to each other. They need to be together. It is enough to melt my heart.
Their cribs were the kind that converted to toddler beds. I could not wait to purchase those cribs. I had prayed for 15 years to be able to have a reason to buy a crib, and I ended up needing two. Four years have passed in what seems the blink of an eye, and here we are moving those long-awaited beautiful cherry wood cribs out in order to make room for the next phase of life.
I suffered for years. And when I use the word suffer, I am not exaggerating. God was with me every single step of the way, but the steps were painful. I trusted Him. I worked hard at “doing good,” and I am dwelling in the land. It is lovely here. Freedom reigns here.
However, you might be surprised to learn that I entered the land before my twins were conceived. I was able to cross the threshold, because I learned to be content within my struggle. It took me over 14 years to fully hand my burden over to Christ without taking it back from Him. When I quit fighting God for control and let Him mold me into who He wanted me to be, I finally entered the land.
The faithfulness of God is overwhelming. Even if you don’t see it right now, you have to believe He is working for you. He is paving your path with His mercy. Keep taking the steps. Sometimes each one hurts and you feel as if your legs are so heavy you can hardly lift them. But He will help you. You can make it.
Look around you today, find something to be thankful for, and feed on His faithfulness.
I’m praying for you…