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I try to wake up each morning and ask what God wants me to learn, or do for Him, that day. If you read the blog last week you know there was a death in my family.  Once again, I became aware of how hard it is to ask God what He wants me to learn through grief. It is incredibly difficult to want to do anything but cry and even get a little angry that my world looks different, emptier, and a little lonely. Death is the hardest part of life…

I spend many of my days writing encouragement to you from the perspective of a woman who has battled grief through pregnancy loss and infertility. And here I am again… It looks a little different this time, but it is grief none the less. This road of life tends to include one hurdle after the next. I’m not saying I don’t have a happy life, because I do. I’m still thankful and joy-filled because of my relationship with Jesus and the gifts with which He has blessed me, but that isn’t to say every day is a piece of cake. Sometimes, we are force fed the fat free, low calorie, cardboard, garbage!

I’m facing an incredibly busy week. I’m the director of the Vacation Bible School for my church, which happens to be occurring every evening this week. My daughter is in a wedding this coming weekend, and I’m preparing for my family to leave on vacation late next week. (We are taking a road trip from Pennsylvania to California with four year old twins. I will be blogging about it. I’m thinking it’s going to be like therapy for me! The blogging not the road trip.) Life doesn’t stop for the grieving process, but God does work, teach, and encourage throughout a busy life.

I’ve had moments of feeling a little annoyed that God allowed our family to face such a loss, but I won’t allow those feelings to win. I’m trusting, walking, believing, and pressing on toward the prize. What else can I do? To do anything else would be wrong and separate me from the true love of Christ. I don’t want that. Even when the ground is shaky, I’m safe in His presence and that is exactly where I want to stay.

Philippians 3:13-15

Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Therefore let us, as many as are mature, have this mind; and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal even this to you. (N.K.J.V.)

I don’t know what you are facing today, but I want to encourage you to keep on keeping on. We have a hope that is sure. We must continue to press on while serving Christ and living for the day we will see those who have gone before us again. It will be a beautiful reunion. And in the meantime, it’s a privilege to serve those around me. I’m staying focused on Kingdom work.

How are you staying focused?


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