Will this be the end of me? No. But to be honest, there are seconds, minutes, hours, and even whole days when it feels as if it is.
When grief overwhelms it easily suppresses light from the soul. It succeeds in hiding the passions for which we were born. Throughout the last week, I’ve strongly considered giving in to those thieving emotions. Maybe I should stop writing, stop teaching… Maybe I should just stop.
I don’t have the energy to promote my blog, book, or brand. How can I ever stand in front of a group of women and tell them that they will be okay when I’m not sure I’m going to be okay again? Ever.
And then the still small voice deep down inside whispers hope, grace, and mercy. I wish I could tell you those whispers submerge my soul in the peace and comfort I’m desperately trying to find. I can’t. But I can tell you that those whispers are just enough.
They are just enough to carry me from this second to the next until I make it to the minute mark, and then the hour, and eventually the next day. And then the process begins all over again. The process begins with me crying out the words,”Can I, Jesus?” And the acceptance of the still soft whisper which answers, “Yes, you can, but only because I WILL.” (Click to tweet.)
He will, friends. He will carry us.
I want to be honest and say that I’m not sure about The Mercy Retreat right now. Do I have the ability to stand up and shout His Glory, or will I weep on my knees in front of a room full of women? Should I still host this event? I don’t know. The only thing I do know is that regardless of my situation, all glory is His. It belongs to Him.
We still have tickets available, and if I’m going to continue this journey, then I could really use your support. Will you join me and some amazing women as we gather together to understand the mercy of Christ as it relates to healing of the heart, grief, and even fear and anxiety? Ticket sales are going to end very soon. If you purchase within the next 3 days, I am offering a discount and gift.
When you purchase between now and the end of Monday, July 28 , you will receive 20 dollars off your weekend conference pass, or 10 dollars off your Saturday only day pass. For those of you who purchase a weekend pass, you will also receive a free copy of my new book Nothing to hold but hope.
I believe God wrote The Mercy Retreat on my heart, so I’m pushing through the best I can and giving it all over to Him. It’s scary. I just published a book about grief and look what happened to me last week…
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Be blessed today.