Because it is National Infertility Awareness Week, I would like to share something that was on my heart March 6, 2008. Our final attempt at IVF…
Everything was hanging in the balance for me that day. I was headed to the infertility doctors for our embryo transfer. I was nervous, anxiety ridden, and fearful of what might not be. Of what might never be… It was our last effort at extraordinary measures to conceive. I was putting every ounce of hope I had in my only hope. Jesus.
I decided to open my Bible and read Psalm 6 before leaving for treatment. And when I did, God spoke strongly to my heart. I wrote a note in the margin of my Bible which says, “March 6th, 2008 Day of embryo transfer. Verses 4 and 9 say it all. God WILL deliver us. A gift from Him in His time.”
O Lord, do not rebuke me in Your anger,
nor chasten me in Your hot displeasure.
2 Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am weak;
O Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled.
3 My soul also is greatly troubled;
but You, O Lord—how long?
4 Return, O Lord, deliver me!
Oh, save me for Your mercies’ sake!
5 For in death there is no remembrance of You;
in the grave who will give You thanks?
6 I am weary with my groaning;
all night I make my bed swim;
I drench my couch with my tears.
7 My eye wastes away because of grief;
it grows old because of all my enemies.
8 Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity;
for the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping.
9 The Lord has heard my supplication;
The Lord will receive my prayer.
10 Let all my enemies be ashamed and greatly troubled;
Let them turn back and be ashamed suddenly.
Regardless of the outcome God WILL deliver you. Believe me when I tell you that I know how hard it is. I do.
Allow Him to love you through this time.
Hold on to His grace.
Continue in His hope.
Rest in His peace.