As a mother of young children I spend much of my time cleaning up messes. Everywhere I look I find more toys. This morning as I was getting ready for church I stumbled upon this…
I couldn’t bring myself to clean it up right away. All I could do was look at it and smile. That picture represents God’s faithfulness in my life. I went through a very long period of time not knowing if I would ever see such a sight like this again in my own home. God is faithful, friends!
The other day my husband was traveling for business. He happened to be near where we used to live in California. He visited the cemetery. Next month it will be 17 years since our lives were changed forever. The journey was very difficult. And to tell you the truth, when I received the picture my husband texted me from the cemetery, I began to feel sick at my stomach all over again. A deep pain resurfaced. Questions without answers made their way to the forefront of my thoughts… What would this beautiful girl look like today? How would her voice sound? As soon as those questions began to weigh me down, I remembered this…
Psalm 92:2
To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning and Your faithfulness every night… (N.K.J.V.)
I’ve memorized this short verse and put it to work. I declare His lovingkindess in the morning, and I declare His faithfulness at night. However, my largest prayer is that I will always remember the gift of faithfulness given to me by the Creator. I don’t have to pray His faithfulness over my life, because His word tells me that He is always faithful. My prayer needs to be that I remember His faithfulness at all times.
We often overcome one difficult circumstance, praise Jesus for His faithfulness, and then when we find ourselves in the middle of the next tragedy, question if He will be faithful again.
When I first saw the above picture my old wound tried to reopen. I can’t allow that. Yes, it’s always going to hurt, but old wounds left untreated lead to infection. I don’t want infected with deep and bitter pain. I want to remember his faithfulness and declare it as victory in my life. You can do the same. It isn’t easy. It’s a process. You might even call it a journey. The terrain is usually rocky, but once you find your footing, you will realize His faithfulness and declare it with the sweet sound of victory in your voice.
You might still be in the middle of your journey. At this moment you could be waging war against unwelcome, bitter, pain. It makes you feel like a failure, you are no such thing! Remembering the faithfulness of God is a mighty weapon in the war and it will aid in the process of healing your heart.
Declare and remember His faithfulness!
Oh friend, I cannot even imagine. They say the pain lessens over time, but I know it will never truly go away, that that hole in your heart will never fully be truly completely healed this side of heaven. God is indeed faithful!
Thank you, Barbie. He is faithful and it is true the pain doesn’t completely go away, but He has healed me in more ways than I can count.
Jennifer, “Declare and remember”…I love it. And I love your bathroom picture. I stumbled over about a dozen of those little toys myself this morning. I’m sorry for your loss and I applaud you as you declare and remember His faithfulness. Beautiful post.
Thank you, Heidi.
How wonderful that God is faithful, ALL the time–even when we cannot feel it because we are so numb. It never ceases to amaze me how tragedies and experiences from our past can trigger such strong emotions (I often cry while I write about our family’s experience with cancer–even though it was eleven years ago and my husband is alive and well). Maybe those emotions that resurface are a powerful reminder that God IS faithful. He’s never failed me yet, but when things are perking along just fine I tend to forget that fact and try to grab control over small things. Instead, I need to wait, remember and exercise patience. God IS faithful.
It sounds like you have a powerful testimony, Anita! I’m so glad your husband is well! Thank you for taking time to read:).
Dear sweet friend, Thank you so much for declaring His faithfullness inspite of you own pain. Your declaration is just what I needed to hear today. I needed to be reminded that He is faithful even when we don’t understand. I pray He continues to comfort you and bless you as you walk this path daily.
Thank you so much, Amy! I’m so glad the post spoke to you.
I needed that verse today, the reminder to let the old wounds stay closed. Thank you for sharing you words.
Thanks for reading, crystal. That verse is a favorite of mine. it keeps my eyes where they need to be:focused on Christ.
wow what a powerful poignant post. Thank you for sharing your healing and yet the wounds that still resurface. I love love the look of your blog also. So inviting. Thank you !
Thank you so much!
God is faithful…this is a reminder I needed today. Such beautiful words, my friend, from an even more beautiful heart. Thank you for sharing them with us. (((hugs)))
Thank you, Mel. I cannot wait to meet you at Allume!