Last year, I learned something that has been life changing for me. God showed me that my pain could turn into passion. Though I had sung Amazing Grace a million times and the familiar lyric lived somewhere deep in my bones, I finally understood what the words meant. “I once was lost, but now I’m found.” Those words didn’t just reside in me. They were going to cause my heart to beat to a brand new rhythm.
15 years. That was the length of time I waited, prayed, hoped, dreamed and begged God for mercy. Through grief I lost who I was, but in the end I found more than I ever imagined. I found gifts used to help and serve others. At first I was afraid to use those gifts.
I felt small.
At the beginning of this writing venture I focused on the all too familiar grief of infertility. And then, I took a turn. I began to write in a daily devotional style. It occurred to me that God connects us not based on what type of grief we have suffered, but by grief in general. I couldn’t just reach out to those who felt the same type of pain I felt. I had to reach out to the broken hearts simply because they are broken. Not because of what broke them in the first place.
But, sometimes, I was afraid. I felt small…
I used to say, “I’m a writer by accident.” I felt small, because I’m not fancy with my words, because I was a kid with a learning disability, because I backspace, use spell check, and compare myself against everybody and anybody.
I can’t believe what has happened over the course of the last 11 months. I didn’t plan any of this. I didn’t plan to write books. I didn’t plan to speak to rooms full of women. I didn’t plan to write a blog everyday like it’s my day job. But, guess what? God did. I’m here. I’ve been found, and now I’m living what Christ intends me to live.
I’m not a writer by accident. God ordained this. By His grace and for His glory, I’m a writer! (Hey, all you writers, feel free to tweet that!)
Tuesday, August 20th is a big day for me. I’m sharing my first eBook. It’s entitled, Mercy Waits. It is a 31 day devotional based on giving and receiving mercy. I cannot wait for you to read it. Please come back and visit me on Tuesday and find out how you can receive yours for free. Please join me as I share my heart with you.
Don’t be afraid to use your gifts. Don’t feel small. Write on, writers! Turn your pain into a passion to serve.
May God Bless you on this beautiful Friday. May you find His peace, and may you pursue His great mercy!