Dear Friends,
The last 12 days of my life have been saturated with tears. On this side of heaven, it’s hard to understand the Master’s master plan. I would like to say I’m done trying to figure it out, or done trying to figure Him out. However, this human heart has a lot to learn about the mysteries that make up the God of the universe. And questions are still circulating through this soul.
On July 10th, only 6 days before my family faced this tragedy, I wrote the following words in a blog post…
“I have learned to regard trust as a safe place. I have had no choice but to trust so many times that when the water is smooth sailing, I almost feel a little out of place. I’m not saying I want storms to come my way, and I’m also not saying that I look for them.
What I am saying is that I’ve learned, and am still learning, to find beauty in trusting the things I cannot see. I’ve made a conscious decision to find peace despite the answers I will never know. I’m learning to surrender my questions into the hands of a God who knows all the answers. And most importantly, I’m learning to be content with His mystery.”
Guess what? Now I have to live it.
Once again, through another tragedy which feels like the worst one yet, I have to settle into the safe place of trust. I have to be content with His mystery.
And through it all, I know everything will be okay, because I’m learning that His mystery is what makes Him mighty. (Click to tweet)
I could never spend my life serving a God who didn’t show Himself strong. But my God does. He. Is. Strong. And through His Son He’s given us the ability to be strong as well. Joshua 1:9 is my life scripture…
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
~Joshua 1:9
He is with me and He is with you. Right now in the middle of the hurt, in the middle of the tear-stained night when we sob quietly so that we don’t wake anyone, He is there. He will meet us right where we are. We need not be afraid.
Let’s trust the God of mystery and be content. You can do this.
I can do this. But only because He WILL carry us.
Love,
Jennifer
Jennifer,
There are no words that I can truly express that can convey how very sorry I am for your and your family’s loss. When we lose someone precious, it is a hard journey. I am praying for you. I pray that you will find God near and that friends will be a comfort to you. For so many months, your words have been a beacon for me. A reminder that this life is short, that it’s ok to grieve, and that God is with us through it all. You are in my thoughts and prayers Jennifer.
Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers. God bless you.
Amen. Just, amen. And blesdings and love and peace.
Thank you, Marcy.
Beautiful words – so sorry for the pain you are going thru. *HUGS*
Thank you, Kelly.
He carries you my friend. You don’t have to walk until you are ready. Praying!